A little lost, a little broken but I’ll be alright I’ve been trying to execute on dreams like every single night I can get them started but I feel so overwhelmed I just end up freezing up and trying to drown myself in the warmth of all this booze but my trust is all that melts
I decided to put my poetry into Midjourney AI to see what would pop out! Pretty cool results!!
I’ve been releasing music as @d.t.ruth every Saturday for the last 6 months and this is the first time I’ve hit 100 monthly listeners on @spotify!
My journey as a writer spans over two decades and I’ve tried to work within Hip-Hop for the last ten years or so in various different capacities with a constant, nagging thought in the back of my mind telling me to fulfill a childhood dream and start rapping.
I would line things up to do it and then back out of it when it was time to get in front of a camera. I told myself several times I was better suited behind the scenes and that my digital marketing skills would be better served helping others. Excuses.
At the onset of the pandemic I faced my deeper insecurities for the first time and tackled them. I started to record myself through my phone and took my poetry from my notepad to vocalizations over beats by my brothers @morenokeyz and @gv_kenraww. When I moved to Austin I thought “this is it”. Either I truly start taking things seriously or I just let it go. Letting it go would come with regrets later on and I couldn’t bear the thought of an 80-year old me reminiscing on what I didn’t try to do so I joined an Austin Hip-Hop group to ask about where the studios were at and luckily met @pmjams through it.
Paul reinforced my belief in myself and matched my intensity to get things done. If it wasn’t for him I’d still be doing TikTok duets without a clear plan and wouldn’t have a single song on any platform. Now we have 26 tracks out there and continue to plot on what’s next. There’s no telling where this takes us but the only thing that I can control is my consistency and persistence so that’ll be there. The only expectation I have is to reach 100 tracks in my discography. Anything else that comes from this will be considered a bonus but I’ll be working my tail off to see this number grow from 100 to 1,000 to 100,000 monthly listeners and beyond. All things are possible through Constant Motion.
PMiller & I released “Fingernails” a few months ago and decided to give it a fresh remix with new verses in a collaboration with the homie Chuck Mallard.
My verse is a self reflection of sorts as I talk about dragging my feet for the past decade and losing sight of what my actual dreams were in the process. It also speaks about breaking free from those mental constraints through my writing.